Matter over Mind

A year ago (or something like that), a girl named Yapi went skipping to her Playstation to try out a new game she just bought while cavorting in the mall that day. The title of the game was Vagrant Story. She was quite impressed with the game, and enjoyed it very much (she also enjoyed seeing the shirtless sexness wonder that is Sydney Losstarot). But 6 hours into the game, something went horribly wrong. And she means HORRIBLY.

Being the stupid git that she was, she wasn't able to develop her weapons properly, so when she faced that @*&$* Wyvern, she couldn't hit it for more than 1 point. After a week, she gave up on the game. Not even Googleshng in RPGamer could help her. The thought of the shirtless sexness that is Sydney Losstarot left her mind.

One year later, the happy Yapi get a commission to draw the shirtless sexness that is Sydney Losstarot. She thought about the game again (and the shirtless sexness that resides within) and thought about continuing it -- this time with the aid of her trusty younger brother's Gameshark (yes, she sucks, she knows it -- don't remind her). Being her first time to use a Gameshark, Yapi was awed at the power of the 999 hit code and breezed through the game like a fart on steroids... Allowing herself to be showered by the evil glory of the shirtless sexness wonder that is Sydney. Until the ending came...

*Vagrant Story spoilers ahead*

Dammit dammit dammit... That ending is gonna leave a mark in my heart until the end of time... It is DANGEROUS for me to fall in love with a shirtless sexness wonder that I thought was evil then have the events spin around as he is revealed to be the good guy... This will fuel my overzealous emotions and turn my hubba hubba lusting into HOPELESS OBSESSION. Yes, now I am completely obsessed with the shirtless sexness that is Sydney Losstarot.

Especially with that part where Ashley looks at his back and sees that Guildenstern has removed the skin from Sydney's back to get hold of the Blood Sin. I remember it well:

ASHLEY: What has happened here?
SYDNEY: Look, and know...

*Ashley lifts Sydney and sees that his back has been skinned*

YAPI: OH MY GULAY!! *screeeeech*
*runs to tv*
Sydney!! What did he do to you!?!
*caresses Sydney's back (on the tv screen at least)*
*jumps up and down*
*gets teary*
*scrambles around* no, no, no, no, no, no!!!
*gets back in her seat, grabs the controller tight, and prepares for WAR*
GUILDENSTERN IS D-E-A-D!!

With the 999 hit code, 'ol Guildy was a roach under my boot. *evil cackle*

Of course, you can imagine who happy I was to see that Sydney made it. But you can also imagine how my reaction was when I found out that he was just gonna end his life anyway. And the fact that he died with a smile...

Some things just blow Yapi away...

*sigh*

Now, what does this have to do with "Matter over Mind"?

Well, now.

I've been so obsessed with Sydney that I've been drawing him non-stop (although only five pictures are worth posting.. I will post them on my hompage soon), but drawing wasn't enough. I thought of all the bishies that have embraced the void and how sad the thought was. So, I had this idea of building a sort of dollhouse of my bishie harem and make little sculptures of all my bishie hunnies. What does that have to do with dead bishies? I don't know. But the idea came in the same breath, anyway, so I'm guessing that Sydney dying had something to do with me thinking of creating a dollhouse/dollharem whatever.

So today, I went out and bought me some nice paper clay because it seemed a good medium. It was soft, smooth, and fluffly white, and can be colored with water-based colors. Nice, neh? Yeah, until I started working on it! The cd I was playing was already going into its third replay, and my Sephiroth figure was still pretty disfigured. Actually, at first, I wanted to do the shirtless sexness that is Sydney. A few minutes later I decided that Sydney's too complicated to do on a first try, so I though maybe I can do Iori. When Iori didn't work, I tried Sevelin, an original character of mine. Then Sevelin morphed into Sephiroth.

Oh, fine, it was finally going well.. It did look like Sephy. A happy Sephy. Well, it's still Sephy. I painted the face to make sure it looked okay, and it did. And so I continued... *mold mold mold, shape shape shape*

Until I came to the limbs. The damn limbs were NOT cooperating! The hair wouldn't stay put either. After what seemed like an eternity of shaping, wetting, and smudging, I was finally able to sit back, look at my work, and MASH IT TO KINGDOM COME.

My mother always wanted me to believe that I could do anything I set my mind to. Sephiroth showed me otherwise.

Serves me right to think that I can create shirtless sexness wonders with clay during my first try to actually work with the thing.

Tomorrow I shall attempt to create a Squirtle.

If that doesn't work, I shall be distributing paper clay bunnies to everybody next week.

Awkward Beginnings

Holy mahutay, so just what demented entity inspired Yapi to put up her OWN blog when she already has a blog with another group? She doesn't even leave the house enough to have anything worthwhile to post.

Simple. Because I want to. Nya nya nya. Just in case I have something to say that won't be appropriate for the group blog. Can't imagine what that might be, but one can never tell. Also, I've been REALLY bored these past couple of days, since I seem to be undergoing an e-mail drought. Yes, I'm the kind of person who does most of her interacting through e-mail. Pathetic? Ahaha! YES! YES! YES! I'm pathetic! And I love it! Being the kind of person who stiffens shitless whenever the phone rings, e-mail is perfect for me. Don't ask me why I hate the phone. I just do. Baing made to talk on the phone causes my blood to run cold. Even when ordering pizza. Yes, really! I can't even order my own pizza! I think it's because I'm shy *bats eyes*

A lot of people won't believe that Yapi's shy, though. Which is strange. I think it's very obvious that she's shy.

ANYWAY. This is kinda awkward. Probably because it's my first post and I sort of feel like I should be doing an introduction or something. So, uh, I think I'll leave this first post, then go to my second, pretending that I've been blogging for quite a while now. Okay? Okay!